Ro Writes

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i live in long beach 

USA

All the way. 

Free slurpee :)

Best. 

Back to reality.

Sitting alone always makes me think. Sometimes good ideas come to me and other times reality smacks me right in the face. Today is one of the latter days. I’ve come to realize that I’m not satisfied with the way things are going right now. I can’t say I’m not happy because I am, for the most part. I feel sort of held back seeing a lot of my friends graduating and talking about getting ready to graduate in a few years and I’m barely about he start the transferring process. I guess it’s mostly my fault for screwing up my first year but I still can’t help feeling not up to par. And I don’t really like comparing myself to others because I know that no one is the same but it still sucks to be in this position. I tell myself and hear all the time that I am still young and that I still have plenty of time to finish my schooling but I just want to get it done with now. I don’t know I guess everything happens for a reason but I am still trying to find out what the reason for this happening is. 

Aside from that feeling I’ve also been feeling antsy about being in Long Beach. I feel like I need to get away, and I’m not saying for a vacation, I mean for a while. Preferably alone. I’ve had the urge to get away for a while but it’s not the best idea, especially seeing how I feel about school. I’ve decided however if not many schools, the ones that I want to go to, aren’t accepting spring transfer I’ll do just that. Get away for a couple of weeks to feel alive again. I know that I’m not depressed or suicidal, although it may seem that way. I just need to get away. 

That moment when you finally reach a goal you’ve been working hard for.